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waaaaaaaaa…da penat2 da post blog td.skali x appear.huk3…x larat da nak post.tp sebab byk lg mase…tules laa balek…huhu.phew.pagi td dgn slumberland nye i x pegi class @ 8.da set jam da.tp my mind sed ‘ecah,xpayah pegi laaa’…huhu.den i sambung tdo troz…jup lg @ 2 ade class management lak.harus pegi cOz last class b4 mid sem break…huhu

wahhh!!!suddenly my mind melayang pg VSCup nye cOmp kat uitm malaysia last hOls.i pegi under debate club uitm kedah…i jd hakim 4 bm debate.haha…tataw la cmne bole jd hakim.da laa im not a debater.penah laaa debate skali tym cOmp inter course mse part2.turh pOn awal2 da kalah.mane xnye…mmbebel taw laaa…but xde pegisian.tym skewl dulu pon im not into debate,coz bz wit band.minat?mestilaaa…tp xbdaye nak menerOskan…

here i juz nak cite y my frens call me ‘ratu margin’…citenye begini…huhu…after abg mont(a.k.a montel)annouced hakim yg akan jge mane2 team,i was lyke ‘God!!!’ i kne judge uitm shah alam…fuhh!u noe hOw powerful diorg kan…den my heart dah dup dap dup dap…bile i masok je preparatiOn roOm,ade bdk2 uitm s.alam kat dlm turh(tym quarantine laa ney).i kne prepare 4 da marking paper etc.pastu  i dgr laa skali all da discussiOn.mOtion yg diorg bakal p’debatkn is ‘1 warna lebih baik’…uitm s.alam(gov) vs uitm johor(opp)…tym bdebat turh…uitm s.alam bwk ‘1 warna lebih baik’ as skolah 1 jantina lebih baik dr skolah cmpur.n i fOund out yg debater uitm s.alam,sorg ex-sas n sOrg lg ex-rmc.dua2 hot deowh…hahaha…1 of da minOr reasOn y i bg diOrg menang is bcOz,all da way bdebat turh,diOrg asek ckp bOt myskewl.cm klaka jugak ade laa…coz u noe wut?diOrg lg taw bOt my skewl drpd me.haha…me senyum jela(dlm ati,kalau laa diOrg taw hakim diorg ney bdk mane)…uitm jOhor lakkk,really out of tOpic n wit da facts yg xbernas…sO i xpk pjg,juz bg laaa uitm s.alam menang dgn margin(12-0)<—-da highest margin i cn gv…(hafiz>>bukan sbb diOrg hOt,coz they deserve it)…mmg perfect laaa…huhu

bile announced da result kat hall,sume org tnye…sape hakim yg jge uitm s.alam?coz margin 12 turh kire da perfect sgt…haha…i wat duNno je.n start frOm dat day,all da bdk2 yg pegi VSCup call me ‘RATU MARGIN’…n after i dpt tOp 7 nescafe kickstart ade yg call me ‘mushroOm gal’…wtv it is…i prOud 2 b myself(0.o)

yeah!tomorrOw balek!!!i naek bus kOl 9 trOn kl.tp kdng2 cm x trase sgt kehangatan nak balek turh cOz my heart n my sOul da ade kat sini.yes!!!here @ uitm merbOk…da bese merantau kan…huhu.xde lg pengisian 4 dis cOming hOls.maybe menambah baik pulih skill flash daku…k laa…gtg for da next class…da lmbt gile ney…daa

eylo…today’s nothing much 2 jot…haaa…ariney i kua outing after 2 weeks x kua dr penjara merbOk neyh.bkn x bOle kua,saje je tanak.u noe gurlz…if kua cnfirm abes beratus2…miahaha.me neyh kn kaki shoppin’.td kua pegi maen bowling wit sir shamsul,dila,dewi,sha,farah,kay-on,hakim n luving cple:ujek n imrah.best gile.me yg tataw maen dpt aaa tOp 3.n guess wut?dila kalahkan sir sham.huhu.da la skill die amat mudah.juz letak bola atas lane,then tgu je bola turh…yg peliknye…STRIKE!!!haha.kagum tol dgn dila.after that pegi makan piza dgn dak2 neyh.sir spend about rm100 sumthing only 4 us.wahhh…cyg aa sir.after dis ley ajak lg.agak penat laa ariney.tp sume tensyen sudah dilepaskn.my saket blakang pon x trase sgt.then beli brg2 asgmnt 4 CSC253.i spend a lot laa jugak..da aa byk sales.tp fulus x m’izinkan.tpakse aa save sket 4 da sake of raye cine(ceh…budget braye jer)yelaa…tyme cuti smgu turh pon harus nak pakai duet.nak kua sane sini.lepak2…kan2…tiket balek lg.sume nak pakai duet turh.lgpon my sis pesan,‘ecah,jgn bOros sgt’…huhu.nak ikotkan bg duet 1 lory pon x cukop.tgu aa me cari sugar daddy nnt(***kidding)…fuhh…ade test sok.pape pon x cover lg.sebok je tukar kertas jd duet(printing service).naseb maisara ade nak tOlong.urmmm…last minute persOn.biase laaa.tp x bgos act cmney…2008 ney cm nak b’ubah cket.tp cm xde p’kembangan je.lg haru biru adelaa.adeyh…k la.gtg…maw study mudy (0.o)

waaa…x boleh tdo lg…byk bende yg dfikirkan…studies…bot others heartfeeling…cptlaa abes minggu ney.da x larat da…agak pressure.huk3…tahlaa…if u guys bce my post…start from my 1st writing…sume bnde yg kesian i wrote.x buhsan ke bace?if u guys buhsan membace…how bout me yg lalui?lg la buhsan…urmmm…td i pegi AGM silat cekak.i x join pon da club.juz pegi nak tgk da demos n amek cOupon.i pegi bdue…balek slalu sorg2…(heh**zyra…tke note).mase lalu foOd court,i tgk byk psgn merpati 2 sejoli yg sedang bjoli all da way nak balek my college.kat tepi2 longkang…PENOH…penah gak tfikir,how if i yg duduk kat tempat diorg turh,ape yg i akan rase.i mean having bf @ uitm merbok.adekah sy akan bsame2 mereka memenohkan longkang2 n jln2 turh?atau adekah sy hanye akan mhabiskan mase di bilik…spt skang ney?haha…tp sume i’allah xkn blaku pd sy***blink***

smp je kat bilik td,as usual…sitting in front of my laptop…on da wireless connection…n start surfin’.ape yg dicari pon tataw daaa~byk asgment yg da dpt n kne submit b4 mid sem hols…

urh!my mind still terbang jaOh.tp xdelaa smp new yOrk.juz area malaysia ney jerk(since i xde connection dgn sape2 kat negara luar sane***except for my sys laaa)…tahlaa..rase ati x keruan,cm kosong pon ade.mayb da byk slh i bwt pd org.saketkan ati org,n mcm2 laa…but nobodys perfect.im nobodys n im not perfect…(afifah…pbetolkan ayat ney).sumtym tkilan gak…bile ade dpn mate x jge btol2,bile da xde bru rindu2an.but i jns suke ‘let it b’…org ckp ati kering.tp even org nmpk i still can laugh eventho’ i faild my paper o putus cinte…but inside me?ade org nmpk?only god nos…tahlaa…ati n prasaan x bole maen2kn?i pon x suke memain n dpemainkan.tp ney sume dugaan n cabaran.if xde sume ney,idOp heppy x?mmg laa hepPy…tp xdelaa seheppy,bile kte dpt solvekn probs turh…izzit?but when i’ve probs o pape laa…i lebey suke mendiamkan diri.bkn pe…saje tanak sshkan org laen.but if da penoh sgt tank simpanan turh…i’l cry.huhu.cm budak2…but dats me!!!juz pengalaman yg akan mematangkan diri ku…i hOpe so

sum1 says ‘i dnt knw why u hv change a lot lately…bt it dsnt mttr as long as u happy…may b i shld stay away 4 a mmnt…bt im stl hre whn u nd me’.. wut actually happen 2 me lately?urm…tahla…cm laen erk?i oso cudnt find out wut happen 2 me…theres sumthing dat always cum across my mind.im not changing…juz dat i need sumtym 2 think bot muhself…build up myself confidence yg da ilang…huk3.plus wit sum small probs yg myself sniri x boleh handle…

i ade kwn…**** namenye…knl die tym part 1.accidently after die cple dgn my fren…ktorg ok…baek…u noe…kwn kan…hes always gv me advices dat really useful 2 me.urm…dis sem,die cm da jaohkan diri from me.i pon tataw sbb pe.but die pnh ckp yg i ney social.suke kua dgn boys…slh ke if i hang out dgn boys?slalu pndg negative tahlaa…for me its okay.but 4 u guys?its depends laa…my niat is juz making frens.not more den dat.bkn i kua sorg2.slalu msti kua rmai2.sape yg knl i je taw i camne(but i think…ramai yg x memahami)…da thing is…i xnak frenship turh putus cmturh je.now die da ade gf baru…penah nmpk diorg dating.i nak tego takot nnt die x lyn…urm…nvmd.as lOng as he haPpy…i pon tanak kaco sape2 da now ney…cukop laa dgn membusykn diri…urm…enuff 4 now…da nantok~

****sOrry if my words hurting u…but if theres anything yg u rase x puas ati…juz tell me…i’l consider

almost 1 o’clock in the morning…n byk keje lg still x siyap…data structure subject puan erny…database subject puan rafidah.both kne submit by tuesday.adeyh…ney if x siyap n x bole bwt seniri maw nye x copy paste from mmber…haha.dunie da maju.juz 1 click je…anything yg kte nak bole dpt.dis sem ade 5 subject.hope tade paper yg kne repeat laa…atleast cukop2 mkn.haha…programming quite interesting.but leceh laaa.byk bnde kene bwt…wondering **ape yg bdk 3 ekor turh tgh bwt skang ekh?( dewi,dila n farah ).tgh struggle programming o tgh bdengkur?huhu…sorry guys.my blog ney x brape nak cukop pgisian coz i byk show my expression…haha.menah jiwang.eh bkn laa…juz dat im kind of yg btroz trng…

things needed:

CSC253-ref book = RM60

CSC258-ref book = x smp lg

ITS160 -ref book = x smp lg

cooler laptop

tv bOx (idea zyra) = RM128

new sliper toilet

kinohimitsu - 2 packs = RM40

tiket balek kl - trans = RM26.20

mp3 - beli kat kdai kim = RM60

catridge - black = RM80 (adeyh…lg mhl then mp3?)

byknye…huhu

ODIN >> sorry…xde niat pon nak emo.juz dat…tah…otak tgh x btol.nantok,penat,sume ade…x cukop tdo aaa…btw,balek mlake jln lekLOK…

sum1 special gv me dis msg

Fill up:

1.U like 2 call me as = syg

2.Song that suits me = tercipta untukku

3.Gift for me = kisses

4.U want me 2 b ur = everything

5.Advice fOr me = diet la sket…muahaha

6.U like/hate me?Why? = bcoz u r damn slumber

i re[p]lied

Fill up:

1.U like 2 call me as = abg

2.Song that suits me = unintended

3.Gift for me = a punch from me…hahaha

4.U want me 2 b ur = sOulm8

5.Advice fOr me = dun smokin’ larh

6.U like/hate me?Why? = bcoz u r notty…

huhuhu…

today nothing’s special…juz dat agak sedey je…after a few hours menangis den me t’tdo…haha…cm klaka if me cite kat blog ney.but i juz want 2 share wit u guys bot my feeling…after dat i bgon,i on my fon n i tgk byk giler msg msok…n o 1 of them is from my abg…a few second i on da fon den my abg call me…he’s angry coz i simply quitting frm NKS4…cm nak nanges balek je rase.he sed he’l support me.ade ke die suro me call da producer n ckp x jd quit.haha…den i started crying…turh laa senjata seorg wanita.miahaha…die pon x bole nak bwt ape2 coz dats my decision.urm…me da ok da rite now…thanx 2 riddu coz cheer me up =P

i smp tlupe nak mkn ariney…tah…x rase lapa lak…sebok ngadap laptop ney siyapkan my asgmnt…huhu…after dis da tanak ckp bot NKS4 ney da…sumtym it will mke me sad.huk3…when i’ve kids nnt i’l consider their interest.doesnt mean i blame my parents.myb they hv their own reason…lgpon myb diorg x yakin on me coz u noe…im kind of playful n not serious in e’thing.but ppl will change aite?

when i jot dis blog…im cryin’ lyke hell…its not dat im regret resign from NKS4…its juz dat im feeling sad bcoz i need 2 resign…huk3…juz now i sent an email 2 da producer dat i quit from da show…5 minutes after dat,da asst producer call me n tell me da confirmation dat i’l be the next contestant coz tyme meeting dat day,there were 14 semifinalist actually…n they havent decide yet who’l b on da show…i told da ass producer dat im quit from da program bcoz my lecturer didnt allow me to take part.either i grab da chance o i’ve 2 leave my studies…but i want both..bcoz im not cnfirm either i’l be kick awl2 o not…da producer sed i’ve potential 2 become da top 4 who’l get rm30k…n she’l wait until monday after i can pujok2 all my lecturer 2 gv me permission 2 tke part on dis show.but im cnfirm dat dey’l say ‘NO’…huk3…but wut can i do…mak n abah pon didnt really allow me 2 join.if i still want 2 join i’ve 2 stand on my own.there’s no one beside me accept me myself n i…
sumtym not all ur dreams can b fulfilld…rmmber ‘Hasrat yg tdk dpt,adalah nikmat yg paling padat’(dis is wut bro ajin told me)…wut eva da decision…i redha n pasrah…juz dat i feel sad jerh…coz i da smp until dis stage n i’ve 2 resign…but its okay coz i’ve da experience interview with their cumel producer n know wut?!we’r talking like a fren!!!hahaha…so called interview end up wit a fren’s chit chatting…wuarghhhh…x bole thn…nak nanges lg…huk3…once again thanx 4 u guys support…if ade rezki nnt when i da keje then i’l build up my beautiful cendawan ouse for u guys…**to shana…ur nasi goreng cendawan i’l blanje u until i meet u one sweet day cayh…

its already 2 o’clock…n i not even can close my eyes…huk3…even pnt gile2 but i dunno y i still cnnt sleep…waaa…myb i think a lot bout e’thing…urm…pe nak jot actually…hua3…mehlaa…nk ngarut cket.actually i juz write any notes o thot juz 4 myself.dunno why i start 2 show off my writing 2 others.ehe…but y not if i share my thot wit u guys izzit?rather den i sve 4 myself (ney sume pgaruh ODIN sbnrnye <—my new fren)…haha…when i hv a look at his blog den i started thinking…hes a man pon rajen buat blog,y not i try kan.n now…i come out wit **THIS**…nmpk cm simple…l8er on i update lg laaa…hua3…btw,any1 sudi2 nak aja me playing guitar?im quite interested wit dis instrument since dulu im a band member.tp cm all da taugeh sudah dilupekan…but i still rmmber sum of them laaa…