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waaa…x boleh tdo lg…byk bende yg dfikirkan…studies…bot others heartfeeling…cptlaa abes minggu ney.da x larat da…agak pressure.huk3…tahlaa…if u guys bce my post…start from my 1st writing…sume bnde yg kesian i wrote.x buhsan ke bace?if u guys buhsan membace…how bout me yg lalui?lg la buhsan…urmmm…td i pegi AGM silat cekak.i x join pon da club.juz pegi nak tgk da demos n amek cOupon.i pegi bdue…balek slalu sorg2…(heh**zyra…tke note).mase lalu foOd court,i tgk byk psgn merpati 2 sejoli yg sedang bjoli all da way nak balek my college.kat tepi2 longkang…PENOH…penah gak tfikir,how if i yg duduk kat tempat diorg turh,ape yg i akan rase.i mean having bf @ uitm merbok.adekah sy akan bsame2 mereka memenohkan longkang2 n jln2 turh?atau adekah sy hanye akan mhabiskan mase di bilik…spt skang ney?haha…tp sume i’allah xkn blaku pd sy***blink***

smp je kat bilik td,as usual…sitting in front of my laptop…on da wireless connection…n start surfin’.ape yg dicari pon tataw daaa~byk asgment yg da dpt n kne submit b4 mid sem hols…

urh!my mind still terbang jaOh.tp xdelaa smp new yOrk.juz area malaysia ney jerk(since i xde connection dgn sape2 kat negara luar sane***except for my sys laaa)…tahlaa..rase ati x keruan,cm kosong pon ade.mayb da byk slh i bwt pd org.saketkan ati org,n mcm2 laa…but nobodys perfect.im nobodys n im not perfect…(afifah…pbetolkan ayat ney).sumtym tkilan gak…bile ade dpn mate x jge btol2,bile da xde bru rindu2an.but i jns suke ‘let it b’…org ckp ati kering.tp even org nmpk i still can laugh eventho’ i faild my paper o putus cinte…but inside me?ade org nmpk?only god nos…tahlaa…ati n prasaan x bole maen2kn?i pon x suke memain n dpemainkan.tp ney sume dugaan n cabaran.if xde sume ney,idOp heppy x?mmg laa hepPy…tp xdelaa seheppy,bile kte dpt solvekn probs turh…izzit?but when i’ve probs o pape laa…i lebey suke mendiamkan diri.bkn pe…saje tanak sshkan org laen.but if da penoh sgt tank simpanan turh…i’l cry.huhu.cm budak2…but dats me!!!juz pengalaman yg akan mematangkan diri ku…i hOpe so

sum1 says ‘i dnt knw why u hv change a lot lately…bt it dsnt mttr as long as u happy…may b i shld stay away 4 a mmnt…bt im stl hre whn u nd me’.. wut actually happen 2 me lately?urm…tahla…cm laen erk?i oso cudnt find out wut happen 2 me…theres sumthing dat always cum across my mind.im not changing…juz dat i need sumtym 2 think bot muhself…build up myself confidence yg da ilang…huk3.plus wit sum small probs yg myself sniri x boleh handle…

i ade kwn…**** namenye…knl die tym part 1.accidently after die cple dgn my fren…ktorg ok…baek…u noe…kwn kan…hes always gv me advices dat really useful 2 me.urm…dis sem,die cm da jaohkan diri from me.i pon tataw sbb pe.but die pnh ckp yg i ney social.suke kua dgn boys…slh ke if i hang out dgn boys?slalu pndg negative tahlaa…for me its okay.but 4 u guys?its depends laa…my niat is juz making frens.not more den dat.bkn i kua sorg2.slalu msti kua rmai2.sape yg knl i je taw i camne(but i think…ramai yg x memahami)…da thing is…i xnak frenship turh putus cmturh je.now die da ade gf baru…penah nmpk diorg dating.i nak tego takot nnt die x lyn…urm…nvmd.as lOng as he haPpy…i pon tanak kaco sape2 da now ney…cukop laa dgn membusykn diri…urm…enuff 4 now…da nantok~

****sOrry if my words hurting u…but if theres anything yg u rase x puas ati…juz tell me…i’l consider

almost 1 o’clock in the morning…n byk keje lg still x siyap…data structure subject puan erny…database subject puan rafidah.both kne submit by tuesday.adeyh…ney if x siyap n x bole bwt seniri maw nye x copy paste from mmber…haha.dunie da maju.juz 1 click je…anything yg kte nak bole dpt.dis sem ade 5 subject.hope tade paper yg kne repeat laa…atleast cukop2 mkn.haha…programming quite interesting.but leceh laaa.byk bnde kene bwt…wondering **ape yg bdk 3 ekor turh tgh bwt skang ekh?( dewi,dila n farah ).tgh struggle programming o tgh bdengkur?huhu…sorry guys.my blog ney x brape nak cukop pgisian coz i byk show my expression…haha.menah jiwang.eh bkn laa…juz dat im kind of yg btroz trng…

things needed:

CSC253-ref book = RM60

CSC258-ref book = x smp lg

ITS160 -ref book = x smp lg

cooler laptop

tv bOx (idea zyra) = RM128

new sliper toilet

kinohimitsu - 2 packs = RM40

tiket balek kl - trans = RM26.20

mp3 - beli kat kdai kim = RM60

catridge - black = RM80 (adeyh…lg mhl then mp3?)

byknye…huhu

ODIN >> sorry…xde niat pon nak emo.juz dat…tah…otak tgh x btol.nantok,penat,sume ade…x cukop tdo aaa…btw,balek mlake jln lekLOK…

sum1 special gv me dis msg

Fill up:

1.U like 2 call me as = syg

2.Song that suits me = tercipta untukku

3.Gift for me = kisses

4.U want me 2 b ur = everything

5.Advice fOr me = diet la sket…muahaha

6.U like/hate me?Why? = bcoz u r damn slumber

i re[p]lied

Fill up:

1.U like 2 call me as = abg

2.Song that suits me = unintended

3.Gift for me = a punch from me…hahaha

4.U want me 2 b ur = sOulm8

5.Advice fOr me = dun smokin’ larh

6.U like/hate me?Why? = bcoz u r notty…

huhuhu…

today nothing’s special…juz dat agak sedey je…after a few hours menangis den me t’tdo…haha…cm klaka if me cite kat blog ney.but i juz want 2 share wit u guys bot my feeling…after dat i bgon,i on my fon n i tgk byk giler msg msok…n o 1 of them is from my abg…a few second i on da fon den my abg call me…he’s angry coz i simply quitting frm NKS4…cm nak nanges balek je rase.he sed he’l support me.ade ke die suro me call da producer n ckp x jd quit.haha…den i started crying…turh laa senjata seorg wanita.miahaha…die pon x bole nak bwt ape2 coz dats my decision.urm…me da ok da rite now…thanx 2 riddu coz cheer me up =P

i smp tlupe nak mkn ariney…tah…x rase lapa lak…sebok ngadap laptop ney siyapkan my asgmnt…huhu…after dis da tanak ckp bot NKS4 ney da…sumtym it will mke me sad.huk3…when i’ve kids nnt i’l consider their interest.doesnt mean i blame my parents.myb they hv their own reason…lgpon myb diorg x yakin on me coz u noe…im kind of playful n not serious in e’thing.but ppl will change aite?

when i jot dis blog…im cryin’ lyke hell…its not dat im regret resign from NKS4…its juz dat im feeling sad bcoz i need 2 resign…huk3…juz now i sent an email 2 da producer dat i quit from da show…5 minutes after dat,da asst producer call me n tell me da confirmation dat i’l be the next contestant coz tyme meeting dat day,there were 14 semifinalist actually…n they havent decide yet who’l b on da show…i told da ass producer dat im quit from da program bcoz my lecturer didnt allow me to take part.either i grab da chance o i’ve 2 leave my studies…but i want both..bcoz im not cnfirm either i’l be kick awl2 o not…da producer sed i’ve potential 2 become da top 4 who’l get rm30k…n she’l wait until monday after i can pujok2 all my lecturer 2 gv me permission 2 tke part on dis show.but im cnfirm dat dey’l say ‘NO’…huk3…but wut can i do…mak n abah pon didnt really allow me 2 join.if i still want 2 join i’ve 2 stand on my own.there’s no one beside me accept me myself n i…
sumtym not all ur dreams can b fulfilld…rmmber ‘Hasrat yg tdk dpt,adalah nikmat yg paling padat’(dis is wut bro ajin told me)…wut eva da decision…i redha n pasrah…juz dat i feel sad jerh…coz i da smp until dis stage n i’ve 2 resign…but its okay coz i’ve da experience interview with their cumel producer n know wut?!we’r talking like a fren!!!hahaha…so called interview end up wit a fren’s chit chatting…wuarghhhh…x bole thn…nak nanges lg…huk3…once again thanx 4 u guys support…if ade rezki nnt when i da keje then i’l build up my beautiful cendawan ouse for u guys…**to shana…ur nasi goreng cendawan i’l blanje u until i meet u one sweet day cayh…

its already 2 o’clock…n i not even can close my eyes…huk3…even pnt gile2 but i dunno y i still cnnt sleep…waaa…myb i think a lot bout e’thing…urm…pe nak jot actually…hua3…mehlaa…nk ngarut cket.actually i juz write any notes o thot juz 4 myself.dunno why i start 2 show off my writing 2 others.ehe…but y not if i share my thot wit u guys izzit?rather den i sve 4 myself (ney sume pgaruh ODIN sbnrnye <—my new fren)…haha…when i hv a look at his blog den i started thinking…hes a man pon rajen buat blog,y not i try kan.n now…i come out wit **THIS**…nmpk cm simple…l8er on i update lg laaa…hua3…btw,any1 sudi2 nak aja me playing guitar?im quite interested wit dis instrument since dulu im a band member.tp cm all da taugeh sudah dilupekan…but i still rmmber sum of them laaa…

wuargh…dis week-end tgl aku sorg je kat cni…maisara balek umah…zyra sure dating week-end ney…ayong lak?**sigh…sdey gile ayong tuka bilek.huk3…da la x bitaw me pape.after came back from kl tgk da ade rumet baru…urm…tah laa…zyra sed…me ati kering.if die sure da trase.wut about my new rumet?hua3…wat hal masing2…tym die tdo me bgon,tym die bgon me tdo.tym me pg class die kat bilek,tym me balek die pg class…hahaha…srupe cam xpayah ade rumet.maybe x biase lg kot.if ade ayong bole laa tumpang manje2 coz shes lyke a sister 2 us yg x brape nak matang.izzit ryte maisara?ehe…but pe nak buwat…she live happily wit her syster up there (huhu…up there meaning top floor larh)…miahaha…dis week-end byk keje kne wat.nseb aa lone ranger…so xde pape yg nak dkejarkan…but i still missing sum1!huhu…hoping dat hes happy wit his lyfe rite now…

Luv Will Die If Held Too Tightly
Luv Will Fly If Held Too Lightly
Friendship Often Ends In Luv
But Luv In Friendship…Never
U May B One Person To The World
But U mAy Also Be The World To One Person…
To Luv Is Nothing
To Be Luv Is Something
To Luv And To Be Luv Is Everything
Anticipation Is sweet
When U Are Sure Of The Outcome
DONT MARRY A PERSON U CAN LIVE WITH
MARRY SOMEONE U CANT LIVE WITHOUT
HONEST Is Word Creates Confidence
HONEST Is Thinking Creates Profondens
HONEST In Giving Creates Luv.
LOVE…One Word That Free Us Of All The Weight And Pain In Life
To Luv And Win Is The Best Things
To Luv And Loose Is The Worse Best

ello e’one…sorry coz wat decision cmney…i think i’l quit from NKS4…coz of beberape faktor…but its okay coz aku rase cm byk lg peluang laen yg aku bole dpt…tah laa…rase cm x larat laa…i know its quite tuff n challenging coz im da youngest taw…n da cmpetitors is not dat cikai2 one…hua3…bkn takot…but ade laa sum problem dat i cant handle…nak wat cane…neways,thanx 4 da support yg u guys bg all diswhile…really appriec8 it…

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